I didn’t know my Dad growing up, saw him less than five times from the age of 5 to the age of 33. I idolized him when I was young but as I had kids of my own I started to resent him which led to pretty strong negative feelings.
After I had child number three I couldn’t take anymore and I tracked him down. He was working at a BMW motorcycle shop in Reno Nevada. I called him and told him I was headed his way and he better plan on making some time to talk. He said it was over due and he would welcome the visit.
I met him at dumpy grease spoon outside Reno. I was full of piss and vinegar and was ready to get to the meat of why I was there. He suggested we spend a couple days calling and shooting rock chucks. I agreed but wasn’t happy. His instincts were good and over those couple of days we broke the ice and got to know a little bit of each other. We shot a few yotes, a few rock chucks and spent some time at the range. Then play time was over and it was time to face off before I left.
We sat two chairs apart in his bachelor pad, less than 600 square feet and I let out 25 years of what had become rage. I told him how I felt and gave him two options, either become the Dad and the grandad I wanted and expected or forever get out of my life. The next 10-15 minutes were powerful, too sacred to share here. We made a pact and he changed that very day. I did too.
A month later he moved to Arizona and took care of my Grandmother until she passed at the age of 99 which wasn‘t an easy task. After she passed he moved in with me and has been with me and my family going on 13 years. We’ve become very good friends and although he isn’t perfect he try’s to be. I’ve learned a lot from him. Even though we didn’t know each other as I grew up our hobbies are pretty much identical.
I’ve spent many days in the woods with him, on the range with him and he has spent a lot of time with my kids and my wife. He is family. He changed that day in Reno, we both did. It was unexpected and all was forgiven. Every time I spend a day with the man I’m grateful that forgiveness came into play and we both benefitted. We have never talked about that day or even that trip. We look forward, not backward and our lives are richer for it.
His health is fading. It’s hard to watch and I know I’ll lose him in the not too distant future which makes every minute, every day a bit sweeter. Today we were shooting Ruger Vaqueros off the porch with some pansi trail boss loads, it was fun, a great way to spend Father’s Day.